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Too Tired For Anything ...

Wed Sep 10, 2008, 7:53 PM
  • Mood: Depressed
I'm tired ...

Not physically ...

Like ... too tired to be angry ... to tired to tell someone to shut up ... to tired to listen to anyone ... too tired to even think ...

It's not because of my poor performance in my presentation lately. I just don't get it. I don't know where it comes from.

My roommate who cannot stop complaining about stuff when I told her hundreds of time to shut her f**king lips off when I'm around?

The new class leader who seems to look down on me because I was never a good leader for the past 3 semesters?

The lecturers who got mad and tells everyone in class that we are class 2 kind of people and we weren't being grateful because we get to go to college at least?

Kiddo who I hardly ever hear from? Or my ego for not trying to give her a call?

I could sleep all week without thinking about these problems but that doesn't seem to help one bit. Something is holding me back but I still don't know what it is. I feel like crying but I don't know what will I cry for. For me or someone else?

Is this what you call depression?

Am I sick?

Or just another retarded emo?

I don't wanna know what am I right now. I just want that 'thing' off me. Please help me ...

Sincerely,

Aoi-chan

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Artist: Madonna (I'm such a Madonnatard lolz)
Song: Miles Away

I just woke up from a fuzzy dream
And I never want to see
the things that I have seen
I looked in the mirror and I saw your face
You looked back through me,
you were miles away.

All my dreams, they fade away
I'll never be the same
If you could see me the way you see yourself
And pretend to be someone else

You'll always love me more
Miles away
I hear it in your voice when we're
Miles away
You're not afraid to tell me
Miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're
Miles away

So far away
So far away
So far away

When no one's around then I have you here
i begin to see the picture it becomes so clear
you'll always have the biggest heart
when we're six thousand miles apart

too much, no sound, i'm come to silence can be so loud
those three words are never enough
but its no distant love

You'll always love me more
Miles away
I hear it in your voice when we're
Miles away
You're not afraid to tell me
Miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're
Miles away

So far away
So far away
So far away

I'm alright, don't be sorry, but its true
when I'm gone you realize
that I'm the best thing that happened to you

You'll always love me more
Miles away
I hear it in your voice when we're
Miles away
You're not afraid to tell me
Miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're
Miles away

You'll always love me more
Miles away
I hear it in your voice when we're
Miles away
You're not afraid to tell me
Miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're
Miles away

So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away


Clubs I'm In

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:iconnd-fans::iconjump-club::icondigital-art-juniors::iconnaruto-uke::iconantisasusakufc::iconsasunaru-otakus::iconakatsuki-club::icondeidara-fan-club:
:icongaara-x-lee-club::iconsasukeyaoi::iconjiraiya-x-tsunade::iconnarusasu::iconbug-heart-dog::iconsasuke-x-naruko::iconmarker-club::iconkisa-ita:
:iconsasunaru-luv-club::iconnarutoyuri::iconprotect-sakura-club::iconutsukushii-yajuu::iconsasuxnaru-club::icondeicasa-fc::iconhotart-club::iconsasunarusasu-club:
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Devious Comments

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:iconkaie13:
I have it too...It comes and goes. I have no idea what it is Hun, but I know how you feel. I started having it in grade 9 and the only way people could explain it was the weather...sometimes when there is a certain whether change (for me it is Chinooks) people experience different things.

My Dad and Brother always know when we are about to have a Chinook because my Mom and sister have horrible migraines and I get all depressed and tired like you are know.

Hang in there and just take it easy, read a book, work on some art, listen to music, cry...I like to take hot baths and read or cry in there...It seems to help with me:D

Hope that helps at least a little...you at least know that you aren't alone...I'm here for you Hun.

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:iconelegentmess:
Down time is completely normal. Worrying over it and labelling it as depression can only make it worse (from experience).

Do things you enjoy. If you enjoy drawing, don't draw to put up on here or y-gal, draw purely because you want to or hang it on your wall after you're done so that only YOU can see it and nobody else can.

Go to the park or walk around a garden. Narutal things calm the senses

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:iconthe-true-freya:
aoi-chan I KNOW how you feel, trust me.
And people aren't helping you I hear. Best thing to do is maybe get an mp3 or a walkman or just SOMETHING so that as soon as your roommate or whatever starts whining you can put it on and send a clear mssg.
Your teachers don't sound like they're doing the correct thing either, but then again you find teachers like that everywhere.
I think that yes, you just might have a slight depression going from the feelings you're writing down. I advise to go to a doctor and ask them to prescribe you some valerian. Don't worry they aren't bad chemical medicen, actually they're herbs and they have no negative side-effects what so ever.
What it does i calm yoru nerve system,a lot of students use it in stressful times since it does no harm and isn't unhealthy. (Be sure to only take 1 every 4 hours though and not more)
and also, I dunno if it's the correct name for it in english but... saint-jan's herb
basically it's a herb that makes you feel happy, again it doesn't have any negative side effects or something.
I've been taking it for a month now and it helps a lot.
as for the rest, just sleep some aoi-chan, try to go for a walk once in a while and try to clear yoru mind.
Go out especially when the sun is shining bright okay?

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:iconhisaru:
yeah~ we all felt the same lawl..just dont be too hyperactive and keep your cool down..lawl be more patient dear..its all will be alright soon :XD:

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:iconuchihaprincess16:
Don't worry, that kind of thing happens to everyone a lot. All you gotta do is relax yourself and try to just do something that calms you down. Like take a warm bath or something. :nod:

It'll pass, trust me. Make the best of it.

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Don't let it get you down.
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:iconlifeprotector:
Well, you're tired, but do you cry a lot? Feel like you wanna commit a suicide? I dunno. But it kind of sounds like depression.

I guess I've kind of gone through it. D:

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Dun be depressed, Aoi-chiii T^T -hug-

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Aoi-chan!!!! dont be sad!!!!! there r so many ppl here on DA that love ur work n i personally think u r a great person!!!

dont beat ur self up or let anyone else tell u wat 2 do....if ur roomate is bugging u talk her....maybe shes just a tad clueless of y ur upset....or maybe she's just full of herself...idk its not me who judges her.....

with that new class leader.....screw them....just because they think u were not the best class leader doesnt mean shit.....if u think u did a good job as class leader then thats all that matters....everyone has their own opinion on how something should be done n as long as u agreed with ur decisions while being class leader then thats all wat matters

The lecturers who got mad @ ur class...well 4 startes my class get the same shit.....were not known 2 b responsible enough.....this year were trying our best as a whole to grow up a little..especially since one of my own friends from my class got killed in a hit and run....it sounds harsh but i think that was a wake up call that my grade needed....4 ur case maybe ur class needs to have sum sort of meeting or get together and maybe try to figure out a way 2 improve the problems...but i doubt doing just that will work....everyone in ur class needs to remind each other on simple little things...its hard 2 improve when ur class has already been 'branded' as i call it but there are ways 2 fix it ...it just takes a little bit of time

u r not depressed.....maybe just extremely stressed out.....take a weekend 2 urself.....afterwords things may seem easier to deal with

i hope this helps u Aoi-chan!!!!

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